Age of wonders
Well, I guess I’m abject or whatever, waking up at night to study my leg
in the mirror. Telling myself there are no great storm flags, only cloth
and dye. Only impersonal wind and small electric feelings in the spine
and skull, where a body can get some work done and then sleep.
One of us would go, “Do you know how many years I’ve been hearing
you say that?” Like almost as mysterious as not saying it anymore,
which is when you curled into a ball and bloomed. In our spare time
when we’re done terrifying ourselves we cultivate our breath in
separate rib cages, triangulating birdsong from our locations across
town. But what is such math and theory in the face of extinction? I’ll
have the food from a tube a bath with salt and some rapid release
narcotic wipe for my brain. I’m trying my best with this figurative
gardenia in my hair, these earplugs nesting like shrimp in my canals
and all the likely moods that pertain to my enigmas.
No one will ever figure me out.